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another saturday

Sat, 11 Nov 2006 07:14:52 GMT

here is another saturday.. well, a very unusual saturday. this is by far the very fist saturday of my fourth year life that i have been doing nothing. or baka tinatamad lang talaga ako. :D

anyways.. i don't know how to feel. i was supposed to be with my bheybie today. pero naudlot ang celebration ng anniv namin. hello? anong pecha na? ndi pa din kame nagkikita. kmsta naman un. when could we celebrate this anniv? next year? damn. so frustrated. can't make him happy. can't make myself happy.

a minute ago my mom approached me. she told me to take a bath and fix myself 'cause we're going to visit Dedey. she said my aunt just called. nanghihina na daw si Dedey. Good Lord, hay.. if this is what's best for him. sino ba naman ako para tumutol. it's gonna be hard. but i'll learn to accept this. soon. Lord, thank You sa kanya. matagal tagal na rin namin hinihiling na wag muna. but.. maybe it's time.

Thu, 09 Nov 2006 11:56:22 GMT

i was really looking forward to this anniversary. i was planning about making it one of the best days of my life. i would hold his hand. hug him tight. kiss him. make him happy. we would spend the whole day together..

together. now that's a word i wish we could be.

happy. another word i wish we could always be.

just two words. two simple words. why can't i experience them?

wow..

Sun, 05 Nov 2006 05:18:17 GMT

umayos din ang araw! haayy.. grabe.. i thought my whole november4 would just be blahh.. but we talked yesterday night.. fixed things up.. then we cried, laughed, told stories, and everything. we were getting sleepy but i said, sulitin ang pagkakataon na maaari pang magpuyat. and so we talked.. and talked.. and talked more.. at inabot kame ng madaling araw sa telepono. kmsta naman un.

it was about 2am when i fell asleep. then i woke up at 7:30 in the morning. i wanted to sleep more but my body just won't let me! i'm like that everyday. no matter how much i want to sleep, i just can't. :( don't know how to fix that. if i sleep late, i wake up at 7:30, and i wake up with huge eyebags. if i sleep early, i wake up at the same time, and my eyes just swell. damn it. i don't know how to fix these eyes. @-)

anyway.. the none-of-your-beeswax problem i mentioned yesterday.. i was able to somehow fix it. and it just makes me feel.. lighter.. and i owe it to my bheybie.. ( thanks bie. love you :D )

now, i'm only thinking about my pending assignments. hello?? pasukan na bukas. wla pa kong nagagawa.. AYOKO PA PUMASOK!! but i miss everyone na.. alabyu guys..

love you chardchard ko..

nice day.. geeeesss...

Sat, 04 Nov 2006 05:10:28 GMT

this is not the way i wanted this day to be. 12am, i have already considered not being with the person i consider MY LFIE on this day i consider to be the most important of all. i've accepted that. but then this morning when i woke up my mom got mad at me. then another bad thing, which i desperately pray not to happen again, came by (that's none of your beeswax to know). i'm currently having a fight with him. what's next? this is not how i pictured this day. man, i got half a day ahead. i hope it would be good. what a nice way to celebrate an anniversary.

weeeee

Fri, 03 Nov 2006 07:05:01 GMT

i got a new account! :D